I am prideful, but not in the “look how awesome I am” way.
No, I’m prideful in a far more dangerous way - I think I’m good, all by my own merits. I think that I’m doing so much better than other people in my life because I don’t and didn’t make the same mistakes they did or that I don’t struggle with the things they struggle with. It’s time I worked at eliminating this area of sin in my life. I intend to start by listing off the areas that I try to mask with outward acts of “Goodness” and/or “Piety”. My pride has caused me nothing but pain and trouble and it’s dethroned the ONLY ONE Who should be seated at the head of my life: Jesus Christ.
I’m arrogant. While I don’t conduct myself in a condescending manner (at least I hope I don’t because I’d be even more mortified than I currently am), in my mind, I’m judging people and viewing myself as though I’m better than them. Sure, I have my moments of sin, but overall, I think I’m doing way better than they are.
I have to be right all the time. I think my opinion on important issues is most often the right one. When I’m wrong, I do not willingly acknowledge this. Only after the point has been beaten over my head (metaphorically) and I’ve offended someone because I’ve not been humble, do I begrudgingly admit when I’m wrong. I’m rarely willing to apologize for my attitude, and when I do apologize, I do so out of obligation to appease whomever I upset.
I’m manipulative. When something doesn’t go my way, I make sure others feel bad about it. When I’m offended, I have to make sure the person feels as horrible as I do before I’m willing to acknowledge their apology.
I get angry very easily. If something happens that I don’t approve of or don’t like, my immediate reaction is to get angry, as though that’s going to change things. If someone contradicts me, I get angry at them. When someone offends me, I get angry at them until they make amends.
I lack discipline. I can’t set my mind to something and accomplish it in its entirety unless there is pressure being put on me, whether in the presence of someone or under a deadline. If I have time to complete something, I will goof off and surf the web before it’s absolutely necessary for me to complete what it was I was working on.
I’m judgmental. I look at people and highlight their flaws. If they do something I don’t approve of, I look down on them. If they’re not as mature as I am, I look down on them. If they’re not like me, I look down on them. Gah.
I’m resentful. If someone has offended me and hasn’t apologized for it, I want nothing to do with that person ever again. Even if they do apologize, I don’t really forgive them until I think they’ve paid the punishment for their offense.
I'm impatient. When I don't get what I want exactly when I want it, I behave like a spoiled brat. In an instant, my life becomes so difficult that I can hardly bear it.
I’m a wretched, broken sinner in desperate need of a Savior.
I need a daily reminder of all these character weaknesses because it’s very easy for me to overlook them, downplay them, or outright ignore them. I’m disgustingly prideful. The fact that I think I’m better than other people shows how deep seated this pride is in my life. The only way I can really see myself overcoming this, is to make this known to other people. It hurts. It’s humiliating. It’s hard. But I’m not a good person. I’m a sinner who aims to control her life because I think I do a great job of it. Yet when I look at all those lovely qualities above, I couldn’t be more off. I’m a sinner who was rescued by the perfect blood of Jesus Christ. I did nothing to earn that and nothing to deserve it. It was because HE LOVED ME. And the best I’m able to give Him right now is a few minutes of reading the Bible in the morning. I’ve had enough and it’s time to let the Lord of Creation be the Lord of my life. Completely.
No, I’m prideful in a far more dangerous way - I think I’m good, all by my own merits. I think that I’m doing so much better than other people in my life because I don’t and didn’t make the same mistakes they did or that I don’t struggle with the things they struggle with. It’s time I worked at eliminating this area of sin in my life. I intend to start by listing off the areas that I try to mask with outward acts of “Goodness” and/or “Piety”. My pride has caused me nothing but pain and trouble and it’s dethroned the ONLY ONE Who should be seated at the head of my life: Jesus Christ.
I’m arrogant. While I don’t conduct myself in a condescending manner (at least I hope I don’t because I’d be even more mortified than I currently am), in my mind, I’m judging people and viewing myself as though I’m better than them. Sure, I have my moments of sin, but overall, I think I’m doing way better than they are.
I have to be right all the time. I think my opinion on important issues is most often the right one. When I’m wrong, I do not willingly acknowledge this. Only after the point has been beaten over my head (metaphorically) and I’ve offended someone because I’ve not been humble, do I begrudgingly admit when I’m wrong. I’m rarely willing to apologize for my attitude, and when I do apologize, I do so out of obligation to appease whomever I upset.
I’m manipulative. When something doesn’t go my way, I make sure others feel bad about it. When I’m offended, I have to make sure the person feels as horrible as I do before I’m willing to acknowledge their apology.
I get angry very easily. If something happens that I don’t approve of or don’t like, my immediate reaction is to get angry, as though that’s going to change things. If someone contradicts me, I get angry at them. When someone offends me, I get angry at them until they make amends.
I lack discipline. I can’t set my mind to something and accomplish it in its entirety unless there is pressure being put on me, whether in the presence of someone or under a deadline. If I have time to complete something, I will goof off and surf the web before it’s absolutely necessary for me to complete what it was I was working on.
I’m judgmental. I look at people and highlight their flaws. If they do something I don’t approve of, I look down on them. If they’re not as mature as I am, I look down on them. If they’re not like me, I look down on them. Gah.
I’m resentful. If someone has offended me and hasn’t apologized for it, I want nothing to do with that person ever again. Even if they do apologize, I don’t really forgive them until I think they’ve paid the punishment for their offense.
I'm impatient. When I don't get what I want exactly when I want it, I behave like a spoiled brat. In an instant, my life becomes so difficult that I can hardly bear it.
I’m a wretched, broken sinner in desperate need of a Savior.
I need a daily reminder of all these character weaknesses because it’s very easy for me to overlook them, downplay them, or outright ignore them. I’m disgustingly prideful. The fact that I think I’m better than other people shows how deep seated this pride is in my life. The only way I can really see myself overcoming this, is to make this known to other people. It hurts. It’s humiliating. It’s hard. But I’m not a good person. I’m a sinner who aims to control her life because I think I do a great job of it. Yet when I look at all those lovely qualities above, I couldn’t be more off. I’m a sinner who was rescued by the perfect blood of Jesus Christ. I did nothing to earn that and nothing to deserve it. It was because HE LOVED ME. And the best I’m able to give Him right now is a few minutes of reading the Bible in the morning. I’ve had enough and it’s time to let the Lord of Creation be the Lord of my life. Completely.
